the nonspace of my mind

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  • A year in selfies

    A year in selfies

    July 2022 August September October November December January 2023 February March April May June July

  • Kernel panic

    We’re finally here, day zero. My coach suggested I think of myself as a zoo animal that’s suddenly had the stimulation of their daily show taken away. So far I’ve done a lot of pacing in my cage. We have three life events this week, so recovery may be delayed a bit, but I’m doing…

  • Time

    The thing that has been in the distant future for five years is finally looming over me.

  • Today in the garden, Tuesday 7 June

    Spring has been cool and wet, so nothing in the garden is as expected. The lavender, which I thought had been killed by the late winter cold snap, lives! It was the first plant we bought after moving to the island, so I’m really stoked. The monarda (bee balm) behind it is still doing well,…

  • Spring in the forest

    Spring in the forest

    Today for the first time since mid-December, enough snow had melted that I could run through the forest. The air smelled sweet and full of new life, and it was warm enough that it didn’t hurt, not my face, my hands or my lungs. Glorious.

  • Algorithms

    It’s taken a few years but Spotify has finally started suggesting playlists that are vaguely accurate in terms of what I actually want to listen to. Lol.

  • Dreaming of summer flowers

    The snow is starting to feel bleak and endless, and I am dreaming of the garden in bloom. I’ve ordered some new flowers for the coming year. I’m excited for these poppies, which should appear not long after the tulips start to fade. I grew the Amazing Grey last year and they were absolutely stunning.…

  • Butterflies and Hurricanes

  • Snow storm

  • Saturday

    It’s New Year’s Day but I’ve never really understood the big deal. Time is a construct. We invented it. It’s meaningless. People get so mad at last year, as though it has agency of its own, cursed us, punished us. Those same people pin their hopes on the new year, only to be disappointed and…